Consistency........

Consistency... a word so simple.... yet a word that has taken on such a NEW meaning in my life. The word was used in a message in church today. That word... is a blessing. It's also a curse. And honestly I can't stop crying even as I type this, because my eyes are open, but in a different light.

What things do you consistently? After service today I thought about that question. Specifically, what does my family see me do consistently? My family DOES see me go to bible study every Wednesday consistently. They see me go to one, sometimes even 2 services on Sundays consistently. They know if I am singing a song, 9.8 times out of 10, it's not secular. And even my 14 year old told me that if I tell him anything, i've already found scripture to back it up. That's pretty consistent right? And good things right? But...

What are the bad/negative things that my kids see consistently? When I drive on the highways, will I speed? Yup. When I run late to get out the door to get my weekday routine started, will I be testy? Most likely. When I finally receive the straw that breaks the camels back in my day, will I cuss? Chances are, yes. If my feelings get hurt enough in one day, will I cry? Absolutely yes. Man..... those aren't the things I want to teach them.

"Do as I say, not as I do."
What do our kids see CONSISTENTLY? Is it like when we grew up? Aunts and uncles getting together drinking, smoking, cussing, fussing, till 3am... but they all told you do as I say, not as I do? Wow. What are WE telling our kids "Do as I say, not as I do". Why do we think it's good enough for our kids, but not for us? Man.... I got some things to correct in my life. How about you?

Titus 2:7-8 New Living Translation (NLT)

7 And you yourself must be an example to them by doing good works of every kind. Let everything you do reflect the integrity and seriousness of your teaching. 8 Teach the truth so that your teaching can’t be criticized. Then those who oppose us will be ashamed and have nothing bad to say about us.