Confession...

James 5:13-18Are any of you suffering hardships? You should pray. Are any of you happy? You should sing praises. Are any of you sick? You should call for the elders of the church to come and pray over you, anointing you with oil in the name of the Lord. Such a prayer offered in faith will heal the sick, and the Lord will make you well. And if you have committed any sins, you will be forgiven.Confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The earnest prayer of a righteous person has great power and produces wonderful results. Elijah was as human as we are, and yet when he prayed earnestly that no rain would fall, none fell for three and a half years! Then, when he prayed again, the sky sent down rain and the earth began to yield its crops.

Hi Everyone, I pray everyone is doing well!
Today my topic is very recent for me. Very real for me. And I've become a walking testimony once again. I have had some issues with a person that i'm so super tight with. And about 3 weeks ago, the Lord told me to Unload. Meaning, I needed to confess everything that I had been holding. Holding all that in was making me defensive, unforgiving and bitter and I had not even realized it until I was at a Women's Retreat this year. I just knew the other person was in the wrong. Little did I know that the Lord would reveal to me that I can only worry about ME. Not what the other person did/did not, is/is not do to me. I can only confess what has already affected me RIGHT OR WRONG and move on so I can fully heal. That's not easy for me, seeing that i'm not a natural vocal communicator. So what did I do? Nothing. I did not to what I know God told me to do. Mistake.
After about 2 weeks, something happened that hurt my feelings. Something that normally shouldn't bother me as much as they did. But because I never unloaded that stuff as God told me to, it was extra painful. Then the very night day was something else. But now I had the old stuff built up, the night before's stuff, and now this!! Yea, I confess, at that point, I lost it. The tears were in full affect and I had to be talked down from my emotions. I had to be reminded of everything that was most important to me. My God, and how important He is and His approval is to me. Then I was sent in my room to pray (like a child) and was told NOT to come out my room until I hear from God again. And as an obedient child needing guidance, I did exactly that. And once again, God spoke to me. All I got was "One Moment At A Time". Which was really step 2 of the instruction He gave me at Women's Retreat. The next day I went to work and decided, since I don't have the courage to SPEAK all the things I couldn't release, I needed to go old school. It was time to write a letter.
Five typed pages later..... I went ahead after completion, I handed it over. I needed to confess everything that i was feeling. I prayed that the person did not take offense at anything that I had to say. That I just needed to unload everything that I was carrying so I could take those wounds and allow God to heal them. I was terrified as I went off to bible study but, like Elijah in the scripture above, I prayed IN FAITH for God to make sure that everything would be ok. That no offense would be taken. That no negative feelings would be had. And I had my trust there the whole time. God honored that prayer. When I spoke to that person again, it was a fantastic conversation. Every since everything has been wonderful. I have learned what it feels like to walk, speak and love freely. I've never had such a weight lifted off me. For the first time I was truly free.

Then I could take step 2 of everything and put it into action. Handling everything from then on One Moment At A Time. The second I let something "wait until later" is something unresolved, then the snowball effect has a chance to begin again. And I know after this one, I sure don't want that to happen!!


So today I say to you, go ahead and get off (CONFESS) whatever has been "on your chest", on your heart, on your mind for any amount of time than needed. Please do it in a way that is CONstructive to everyone involved, and not DEstructive. Always pray before doing something like this, and do it IN FULL FAITH. Know for real, for real, that you are not doing it for selfish reasons (like truly trying to down someone) but to help each other. When you aren't doing it for selfish reasons and you know, that you know, that you know, that God Can heal every hurt and broken place, He comes through and does it. Then make sure to take every person and every thing and every situation, One Moment At A Time and things will always be OK. 

Be Blessed, I Love You All To Life!!