Old Girl Dead, New Girl Reborn.....

2 Timothy 1:7 NLT For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline. Hey Family, Its been another minute since my last post. And this new journey that our Father has me on is teaching me a lot. About me. About Him. About my heart. About my mind. And mostly, about my MOUTH. But within all that, I heard something from an amazing sister of mine and within my journey, I had what seems like a subconscious question for my journey also. What has FEAR made you do? What has FEAR stopped you from doing? What has FEAR stolen from you? When I say these questions really messed me up. I mean it. My sister had gone back to things she did in her childhood and was able to pull things caused by fear. So I spent some time just going down memory lane in my own life over the last week or so. I had to take a pause from it for a couple of days because as I was typing it all into my spreadsheet (I live my excel to ke...

Hi Family! I was talking with a co-worker (car enthusiast) today and he brought up a person that he knows in his car club and showed me a SportsCenter Featured piece that was done about the person 3 years ago. His name is Richie Parker. This video had my full attention. Not because I'm a sports enthusiast or because I'm any other kind of enthusiast for that matter. But because this man, seems to be the definition of OVERCOMER. Richie Parker was born in Beaufort, SC with a condition called Bilateral Amelia. This condition caused him to be born, without arms. Imagine as you are reading this right now, that you did not have the fingers to swipe up, down, left, right on your phone, tablet or iPad. Better yet, imagine you had no hands to hold it with. Then again, forget the technologies and tools we have. Imagine you had no arms to hug your parent or child with. How would you feel? How would you be able to overcome? But this man did....

Hello Family,      I heard something the other day that really stuck in my spirit. And since I heard it, I've been seeing so many examples that prove it to be true. In others. In me. Even in my home. It's a crazy kind of revelation. And probably the hardest for me. Anytime that God reveals something to you is amazing, but it's a different kind of amazing when He is revealing you, to yourself, in the process. But the beauty of it, and the strength, is in "facing the music" when it's revealed. “Other people don’t create your spirit; they only reveal it.” - Dr Henry Brandt      God had me think of things that we all have said and done before. But before I mention anything that anyone may feel any kind of condemnation for, let me remind you of how imperfect I am. It's commanded in the Bible in Leviticus 5:5   "When you become aware of your guilt in any of these ways, you must confess your sin." That is why I am starting by exposing ...

Good morning Family, I just recently learned yet another lesson about our God and how powerful He truly is. Two weeks ago, I lost my uncle. He's one that holds a VERY deep and special place in my heart. So of course, I was devastated. I probably cried the hardest and most painful tears that I've cried in a long time. It was a blow I didn't expect, which made it all the worse. It was a very difficult Sunday for me. One I'll never forget.  What I did not realize is, about a year ago, this uncle had a stroke and my prayer became "God just don't take him from us before I'm ready. I just don't know what I'll do." It seems like a selfish prayer, but it came from a place of honesty. I knew what I could not handle. And I needed to be real about it. From that time all the way up until that devastating phone call 2 weeks ago, I felt exactly the same. Nothing emotionally felt like I had changed in any way. Not about that. I had no idea if God hear...

My Beautiful Tio Manuel (Uncle Manuel) This week I lost you. Something I never expected to happen. You just went away on us. No notice. No warning. Our hearts and lives turned upside down  at the sound of someone's voice on a phone call on a beautiful day.  You had been sick a while. Yea, I get it, our time comes. But there were so many ups and downs over the years,  I guess I thought we'd always get notice that you were not well again...  At least before you went away. But i'm not mad about it at all.  I'm not mad that I didn't get a chance to see you alive. God obviously didn't want me to see you that sick.  Because even when we tried to get to you,  you were already moving back to Puerto Rico.  So I'm Grateful. I was told, that by that time,  you couldn't remember who the person was that you were looking at. I guess early alzheimers started to take hold of you. I'm honest with myself, if you ...

Hi Family, I read this scripture this morning. I've read it many times before, and every time, I think first of how much I warn my son about how he helps people. I love his heart. He desperately wants people to be ok. How he wants people to be happy. But one thing I know is I was that same person. I have learned, partially the hard way, that sometimes I'm just not the best person to help you. I can't solve everyone's problems. I want to be able to be supermom, and super woman. But truth be told, there are certain areas that I may not be able to help someone in, because I may not be strong enough.  Can you imagine, someone drowning in a lake. And you are in the crowd of spectators watching in horror. But you can't swim. Are you the one who jumps in anyways, in a thoughtless but fully emotionally invested act? Possibly to lose both your lives?   Or are you the one who can quickly strategize and find the most experienced swimmer to have them jump in the...

Hey Family! So I know, I've not been posting so much lately. But I've been in a period of self-evaluation. A period of discovery. A period of revelation. And as some of you know, it's difficult, sometimes impossible to hear from God well when you have so much on your mind and on your heart. And to be honest, I had a whole LOT on my mind and on my heart in the last quarter. I had some serious heart searching that I had to do. I had a lot of sorting out that needed to take place between my heart, my mind, my emotions and "common sense". Those are 4 things that can really mess your faith up. So much happens in our lives that require decisions that need to be made that we need a lot of common sense for. And with common sense decisions our mind does what it's done for years. It searches for justification of our common sense decisions. The thing that I forgot, while my mind was being bombarded by more and more emotions and disorder is that Faith doesn't make...