Old Girl Dead, New Girl Reborn.....

Hi family! I’ve been M.I.A. lately, I know. I was doing what I do best. Spend time with my family. There is something about when you take time to buckle down and readjust your focus when you feel like your world is spinning all around that helps you answer questions. Whether you are extra spiritual about everything, or if you just need to find the logic in something, readjusting your focus helps. The moment I realized that I was having a question answered was with my baby girl. Her innocence mixed with my love for Disney movies speaks volumes in my heart. Yes, my heart, the place where love, hope and faith live. I realized that any time that my heart was broken it always showed because one, if not all, of those topics were severely affected. She has suddenly come off of her Disney Jr shows for a minute. But she was suddenly a Frozen girl. Queen Elsa and Princess Anna were it all of a sudden. Me, being the mom and woman that I am, can EASILY watch this movie a few times with her....

Hi Family, So on Friday I told you about a couple of things. My love for Disney movies (don't judge people!) and 7 sins per the world and then the 7 per The Word. So since the Lord brought me to the 7 sins per the world first, we are going to follow His lead. His way is best right? So after thinking about the seven dwarfs and the 7 deadly sins... I thought about the characteristics about those sins. And how they are in us, but we don't see them. Maybe not all of the sins, maybe only one. Maybe you are so absolutely faithful and perfect in life that you have none. But for the majority of us, myself included, we have at minimum one of the seven. They are sins that are hidden even from themselves, but like a mirror they can usually see their reflection in others. For example, a prideful person cannot see the spirit of Pride or Arrogance in themselves. But they can see it in others. Because of these types of sins (wh...

Psalm 51:7 NLT Purify me from my sins, and I will be clean: wash me, and I will be whiter than snow. Hi Family! If you know me, in my inner heart, you know that I'm a Disney fan. I had to take the day off work yesterday and I got caught up with the kids watching Disney movies. Starting, of course, with a new Disney movie because Lareina kept asking to watch it. It was Descendants 2. Now, let me be honest, I saw the first Descendants movie and I LOVED IT. LOL! So although I fought and fought not to watch this one for weeks, I still ended up watching it yesterday. I hadn't realized how much I would connect with the movie. Outside of the songs and the dancing and the good vs. evil plot of course. But the message was a really good message about being your own Authentic You. And how important it is to be your own authentic you ESPECIALLY for and around the people you love. Because it's exhausting and truly debilitating (mentally and physically) to try to live up to the ex...

Dear Lareina, I joke a lot and say that fourteen years ago today, I say i "Evicted" you. I guess being young and having lots of pregnancy hormones, I was pretty selfish. I didn't want to share my birthday with you. Fourteen years later, I can tell you that sharing it with you, even by one day, has been such a highlight for me. You were the BEST birthday present anyone could ever give me. You are absolutely different from your brothers and sisters and I want you to LOVE that. Love everything about yourself. Don't worry what other people are doing or what they have. Put and keep your focus on God first, then your future. Everything else will come!! I Love you so very much!!! Your mommy always.

Hi Family, I was talking to one my closest sisters on Friday. The one that knows my emotions in the pit of my heart from the way I say "hello". I don't get to talk to her daily, or weekly, or even monthly. But we always manage to catch up at some point. She gave me 3 points of encouragement that I wanted to share with you. I didn't know how much I needed to hear it until she said it and I cried like a baby. So for anyone who needs to hear it, here it is. And I just added what came to my heart when she said it: You Are Enough.   The only person you need to be better than is the person you were yesterday. And the only person you ever need to try to be good enough for is for God because man will always let you down somewhere along the way. Perfect Is Only A Word In The Dictionary.   I will never be perfect. I aim to be like Christ and that's all I can do. And what is considered "Perfect" to one person, is not "Perfect" to another, therefore...

Hi Family In my last few posts, I’ve been hanging around King David, before he was king of course. The last few passages we talked about were in Chapter 22. But today we are going to fast forward to chapter 24. My reason, and some of you who really know me may laugh because it’s so true, is I have a problem with Patience. I was driving with my kids just yesterday just to run an errand and I was rolling along when I saw a police car coming toward me from the opposite direction. Of course, like many of you, my first reaction was to check my speedometer. Yea, I was about 7 miles over, OOPS! So I had to nonchalantly slow myself down and as he passed by me I knew I still wasn’t quite at the speed limit. So I watched him on my rear view window as I repeated “just don’t turn around. Don’t turn around. Don’t turn around.” And I saw him turn in to the very next street and said “shoot, he’s gonna turn around.” Well, God was once again looking out for me and although the officer turned i...

Dear Cesar, At about this time (11:00am) 16 years ago, I was leaving Dr Chaudry's office to be on my way to deliver you, my own natural first born. So much excitement was going through me that day. I remember it like it was yesterday. I could not have been any happier. 16 Years later, I still could not be any happier with the gift God gave me that beautiful Friday in 2001. I could never have imagined the trials and troubles we would go through together. I wish I could erase so many of them because they were so hard on you. The things, people, and experiences that God allowed for you to go through have built you to be able to be so soft hearted and yet so rock solid at the same time. 16 Years later, I could never have imagined that I would end up with an extremely gifted violinist for a son. The talent that God has given you (because I don't care what anyone says, that level of talent in you was not genetics or time in practice, that was God...