Old Girl Dead, New Girl Reborn.....

Hey Fam!! I hope you all had a great day! I will tell you, for me it was ONE OF THEM DAYS (in my Monica voice for my older R&B people)!!  You see, I had a huge project that got dropped on my desk yesterday. Things were done wrong, balls were dropped, and this account was a HOT MESS. Well, the problem wasn't the work that was done wrong or missed, the problem was the Client Relationship. You see, it wasn't just one single account. It was actually 5. And then there was a lot of things that were done, therefore, it was no longer only 5 accounts. It was actually 17 ACCOUNTS AFFECTED!! Let me tell you, coming up with a game plan on how to get this all fixed by the end of business Friday (as in tomorrow) was going to prove to be a challenge. Gotta love Year-End business activity. Well, by the end of the day yesterday, God had given me an organized game plan ready to execute for this morning. All I needed was some help. Well, little did I know that the Lord had already inspire...

Hi Family, For the last 2 days, I've been realizing some things. And today, even as I type this, it's hitting me like a ton of bricks. To the point where I keep wandering around my house just trying to hold back tears. Just not able to quite find a quiet spot to have a moment with the Lord. You see, so many years ago, There was a conference held in the heavens. A conference meant to decide on a solution to our sins..... My sins..... As I think back to when I first realized the true meaning of Easter about 4 years ago until today, I am able to connect so many dots. I think about lots of moments in the bible that overwhelm me to the point of tears. And Resurrection Day (Easter) was my most impactful... Today, it hit me that I have a purpose. You have a purpose. My children have a purpose. Your children have a purpose. Why? Because we were born in God's image. But why is that so special? I mean, we'v heard it a million times..... What's special is that Jesus had ...

Hi Family! So I was just talking to a friend a couple of hours ago about all the things we've done for our kids that encourage them to dream and give them permission to dream without restrictions. Christmas time seems to always be that time where adults and kids alike tend to go out their way and try to believe. I remember a Christmas when my children were much younger I went all out after they had gone to bed. I brought out all of the presents and strategically placed them all over our living room. Packages and ribbons and bows everywhere!! That for me is pretty normal, but that year the kids and I made sure to make the cookies and warm milk for Santa. We were even thoughtful enough to leave a magical glittery treat outside for the reindeer as well. After all of it was set up, my ex-husband crept out the back door to the front of the house, with all sorts of bells and wearing hard boots. He made sure to make joyful Santa and reindeer sounds all over the house, especially by t...

Hi Family, I'm short on words today. I have been in a spirit of Gratefulness all week. Just thinking about all the goodness God has shown to me. I've endured some really, really hard times in 2017 (like many of you have as well). Some that could have really broken me spiritually as well as emotionally. But two things have been very clear to me in this process and I've had to find the (sometimes impossible) strength to stand on it. This week I've had to add one more scripture to it. If God Is For Me..... WHO Can Ever Be Against Me?  Romans 8:31 My Old Self Has Been Crucified With Christ. It is no longer I who lives, But Christ Who Lives In Me.   Galatians 2:20 ...and my new one.. God Causes All Things Work Together For Me.  Romans 8:28 No matter what we have gone through in this year, God has always been there to pick us up, dust us off, and tell us "Its ok baby, I'll fix that, you try it again". No matter if the mess I found myself in was m...

Hi Family! So i'm stuck in those same scriptures from my last post and something else struck me. I figured since I shared the first part, I should complete the revelation that I received. So, you'll have to catch yourself up by reading yesterdays post which was centered on 2 Kings 4:8-17. Now i'm going to give you a visual of what the Lord showed me through verses 18-24.  Yesterday we talked about the woman. What I felt from her actions and her reactions. Just finding how it seems that she was living her life of faith.  In these verses, God was having me focus on the husband. His actions, reactions and lackadaisical action. Here are the verses: 18 One day when her child was older, he went out to help his father, who was working with the harvesters.  19 Suddenly he cried out, “My head hurts! My head hurts!” His father said to one of the servants, “Carry him home to his mother.” 20 So the servant took him home, and his mother held him on her lap. But around noontim...

Hi Family! I've had a story on my heart ALLLLLL day. And seeing that my day was so busy playing transport for the kids to get to their respective morning places (most people call this PARENTING LOL) I had lots of time to think of the small details of the story. But since I've been home, I've been really reading and studying this story. It's the story of the Shunnamite Woman. You can find the story in 2 Kings 4:8-37. But my focus was at the beginning of her story. Just verses 8-17. Here is what it says: 8 One day Elisha went to the town of Shunem. A wealthy woman lived there, and she urged him to come to her home for a meal. After that, whenever he passed that way, he would stop there for something to eat. 9 She said to her husband, “I am sure this man who stops in from time to time is a holy man of God. 10 Let’s build a small room for him on the roof and furnish it with a bed, a table, a chair, and a lamp. Then he will have a place to stay whenever he comes by.” ...

Hi Family! I was recently in a situation where someone was a little "excited" about something going on. And when they brought the situation to me, they actually ran into my Peace. You see, in that moment I heard the situation. I heard the frustration. But there was not a single thing that I could do about it. So I acknowledged it and moved on with what I was doing. You see, there comes a point in your life when you realize that you can't "react" to every single thing that comes to you. Well.... you do react, but NOT EVERYTHING warrants a negatively excited reaction. Not everything demands for me to fuss and be frustrated and argue and be upset. Some things I can't do anything about. And it does not mean that I don't care at that point. I just take on the mentality of "It Is What It Is" or "Gods Going To Have To Handle This One". What else can I do when I can't do anything? Pray. We can all always pray.  Now, i titled t...

Hi family, This month has been quite a month for me at church. Each message delivered from the pulpit aggravated a thorn in my side. But a couple of them exposed a thorn I didn't know existed on me.  I was on a walk yesterday on one of my breaks from work and asked God, what's the deal with all this? The things going on in my life this year. My family. My children. My feelings. My faith. How does this tie up? Of course, i can't explain my journey just yet, but God gave me an image that was so beautiful, I thought it was good enough to share. Imagine this beautiful rose in this rose garden. It stands so tall and strong and smells so sweet. All by itself. The rose  wonders to itself... If it is so tall and strong and beautiful and smells so sweet, why is no one choosing it? Why is it still not chosen.  But the beautiful rose is unaware of the great many thorns it has. It's not safe to choose it with so many thorns. It would pose a threat or potential harm ...

Hi Family As I studied early this morning, some scriptures jumped out at me. And as we know our God, He knows our thoughts before we realize we even had them. So He did it to me again. He revealed to me that as I age I can’t be concerned with whether or not I’m still as “beautiful” as I was when I was younger. If my love is still attracted to me. If the “world” still finds me acceptable. Hair will turn gray or it will start to fall out. Wrinkles will come. Eyes will need help seeing. Physical movement slows down. But a man or woman who fears the Lord has a beauty about him/her that never will fade. That beauty is The Word of God that will be ever living within us. The Word, that if we truly believe with all our Faith is true, and live it out. That’s the beauty that will always remain when the superficial is not as strong as it once was. Don’t rely on the beauty of today, but invest in the beauty that will last an eternity. So the question, at some point for all of us,...

Hi family! I’ve been M.I.A. lately, I know. I was doing what I do best. Spend time with my family. There is something about when you take time to buckle down and readjust your focus when you feel like your world is spinning all around that helps you answer questions. Whether you are extra spiritual about everything, or if you just need to find the logic in something, readjusting your focus helps. The moment I realized that I was having a question answered was with my baby girl. Her innocence mixed with my love for Disney movies speaks volumes in my heart. Yes, my heart, the place where love, hope and faith live. I realized that any time that my heart was broken it always showed because one, if not all, of those topics were severely affected. She has suddenly come off of her Disney Jr shows for a minute. But she was suddenly a Frozen girl. Queen Elsa and Princess Anna were it all of a sudden. Me, being the mom and woman that I am, can EASILY watch this movie a few times with her....

Hi Family, So on Friday I told you about a couple of things. My love for Disney movies (don't judge people!) and 7 sins per the world and then the 7 per The Word. So since the Lord brought me to the 7 sins per the world first, we are going to follow His lead. His way is best right? So after thinking about the seven dwarfs and the 7 deadly sins... I thought about the characteristics about those sins. And how they are in us, but we don't see them. Maybe not all of the sins, maybe only one. Maybe you are so absolutely faithful and perfect in life that you have none. But for the majority of us, myself included, we have at minimum one of the seven. They are sins that are hidden even from themselves, but like a mirror they can usually see their reflection in others. For example, a prideful person cannot see the spirit of Pride or Arrogance in themselves. But they can see it in others. Because of these types of sins (wh...

Psalm 51:7 NLT Purify me from my sins, and I will be clean: wash me, and I will be whiter than snow. Hi Family! If you know me, in my inner heart, you know that I'm a Disney fan. I had to take the day off work yesterday and I got caught up with the kids watching Disney movies. Starting, of course, with a new Disney movie because Lareina kept asking to watch it. It was Descendants 2. Now, let me be honest, I saw the first Descendants movie and I LOVED IT. LOL! So although I fought and fought not to watch this one for weeks, I still ended up watching it yesterday. I hadn't realized how much I would connect with the movie. Outside of the songs and the dancing and the good vs. evil plot of course. But the message was a really good message about being your own Authentic You. And how important it is to be your own authentic you ESPECIALLY for and around the people you love. Because it's exhausting and truly debilitating (mentally and physically) to try to live up to the ex...

Dear Lareina, I joke a lot and say that fourteen years ago today, I say i "Evicted" you. I guess being young and having lots of pregnancy hormones, I was pretty selfish. I didn't want to share my birthday with you. Fourteen years later, I can tell you that sharing it with you, even by one day, has been such a highlight for me. You were the BEST birthday present anyone could ever give me. You are absolutely different from your brothers and sisters and I want you to LOVE that. Love everything about yourself. Don't worry what other people are doing or what they have. Put and keep your focus on God first, then your future. Everything else will come!! I Love you so very much!!! Your mommy always.

Hi Family, I was talking to one my closest sisters on Friday. The one that knows my emotions in the pit of my heart from the way I say "hello". I don't get to talk to her daily, or weekly, or even monthly. But we always manage to catch up at some point. She gave me 3 points of encouragement that I wanted to share with you. I didn't know how much I needed to hear it until she said it and I cried like a baby. So for anyone who needs to hear it, here it is. And I just added what came to my heart when she said it: You Are Enough.   The only person you need to be better than is the person you were yesterday. And the only person you ever need to try to be good enough for is for God because man will always let you down somewhere along the way. Perfect Is Only A Word In The Dictionary.   I will never be perfect. I aim to be like Christ and that's all I can do. And what is considered "Perfect" to one person, is not "Perfect" to another, therefore...

Hi Family In my last few posts, I’ve been hanging around King David, before he was king of course. The last few passages we talked about were in Chapter 22. But today we are going to fast forward to chapter 24. My reason, and some of you who really know me may laugh because it’s so true, is I have a problem with Patience. I was driving with my kids just yesterday just to run an errand and I was rolling along when I saw a police car coming toward me from the opposite direction. Of course, like many of you, my first reaction was to check my speedometer. Yea, I was about 7 miles over, OOPS! So I had to nonchalantly slow myself down and as he passed by me I knew I still wasn’t quite at the speed limit. So I watched him on my rear view window as I repeated “just don’t turn around. Don’t turn around. Don’t turn around.” And I saw him turn in to the very next street and said “shoot, he’s gonna turn around.” Well, God was once again looking out for me and although the officer turned i...

Dear Cesar, At about this time (11:00am) 16 years ago, I was leaving Dr Chaudry's office to be on my way to deliver you, my own natural first born. So much excitement was going through me that day. I remember it like it was yesterday. I could not have been any happier. 16 Years later, I still could not be any happier with the gift God gave me that beautiful Friday in 2001. I could never have imagined the trials and troubles we would go through together. I wish I could erase so many of them because they were so hard on you. The things, people, and experiences that God allowed for you to go through have built you to be able to be so soft hearted and yet so rock solid at the same time. 16 Years later, I could never have imagined that I would end up with an extremely gifted violinist for a son. The talent that God has given you (because I don't care what anyone says, that level of talent in you was not genetics or time in practice, that was God...

For the last few weeks at my church, we've been studying about the Stronghold of God. It's an amazing place that I didn't even realize I've been in so many times in my life. All those times when people look at me and have no clue what's going on behind my smile. That's the Stronghold of God. And I don't mean those times where I'm just strong and not falling to sorrow and I can hide it with a smile. I mean those times where I truly may be going through, but I have so much peace in me that I'm smiling because God has me. That's a stronghold of God. God became my cave when my world was upside down. Sometimes I didn't realize that's what I did, but many times I knew I was running to Him. The other day I talked about David when he was on the run from King Saul. How he got his Bread of Presence (grace) and was able to obtain the same sword that David cut Goliath's head off with (grace).  As I continued reading into the next chapter (1 Sa...

I was just doing a morning study, and I was lead to David when he was on the run from King Saul. (1 Samuel 20-22) It amazed me how God had such an amazing plan for God’s life. Yet, he was on the run from a man he respected. A man that was sitting on the throne, placed there by God. Yet, this man, The King, had it out for David in such a way that he was hunting him down to kill him. And David had no clue WHY Saul was acting like this all of a sudden. I mean, David knew he was to be king, but CLEARLY, if Saul got hold of him and killed him, how could he be king?????? I wonder if David ever prayed this prayer…   “God, I know you said I am anointed to be the next King and all, But how can I be king when I’m on the run from someone who is trying to kill me??? Kind of seems a backwards doesn’t it?”   I’ve prayed that prayer many times. “God you gave me this promise. But WHY is it that EVERYTHING Is going in the opposite direction of that promise? ...

This is the day the Lord has made and we shall rejoice and be glad in it!!   Morning Family!   Today is a simple message. And it starts by putting myself on out there. I woke up this morning and the first thing in my mind was…   “Ugh, I can’t do this today. I’m tired. I can feel it; I just know this day is going to be miserable.”   Yes people, I’m human!!! But you know what, I love the Holy Spirit. He just reminds me to watch my confession. And immediately I knew I had to switch that thing up!!!!   I mean, seriously. What you speak is what you get. It is what it is. If I speak about how broke I am, then I’ll be broke. But if I say, I have money that is speedily on the way that is way above what I was planning for, then that’s what I’m going to have!!!!   One of my beautiful sisters was texting me about a week ago asking me to lift her up in prayer because she wasn’t feeling well and was having odd fevers. And that the docto...