Old Girl Dead, New Girl Reborn.....

Dear Cesar, At about this time (11:00am) 16 years ago, I was leaving Dr Chaudry's office to be on my way to deliver you, my own natural first born. So much excitement was going through me that day. I remember it like it was yesterday. I could not have been any happier. 16 Years later, I still could not be any happier with the gift God gave me that beautiful Friday in 2001. I could never have imagined the trials and troubles we would go through together. I wish I could erase so many of them because they were so hard on you. The things, people, and experiences that God allowed for you to go through have built you to be able to be so soft hearted and yet so rock solid at the same time. 16 Years later, I could never have imagined that I would end up with an extremely gifted violinist for a son. The talent that God has given you (because I don't care what anyone says, that level of talent in you was not genetics or time in practice, that was God...

For the last few weeks at my church, we've been studying about the Stronghold of God. It's an amazing place that I didn't even realize I've been in so many times in my life. All those times when people look at me and have no clue what's going on behind my smile. That's the Stronghold of God. And I don't mean those times where I'm just strong and not falling to sorrow and I can hide it with a smile. I mean those times where I truly may be going through, but I have so much peace in me that I'm smiling because God has me. That's a stronghold of God. God became my cave when my world was upside down. Sometimes I didn't realize that's what I did, but many times I knew I was running to Him. The other day I talked about David when he was on the run from King Saul. How he got his Bread of Presence (grace) and was able to obtain the same sword that David cut Goliath's head off with (grace).  As I continued reading into the next chapter (1 Sa...

I was just doing a morning study, and I was lead to David when he was on the run from King Saul. (1 Samuel 20-22) It amazed me how God had such an amazing plan for God’s life. Yet, he was on the run from a man he respected. A man that was sitting on the throne, placed there by God. Yet, this man, The King, had it out for David in such a way that he was hunting him down to kill him. And David had no clue WHY Saul was acting like this all of a sudden. I mean, David knew he was to be king, but CLEARLY, if Saul got hold of him and killed him, how could he be king?????? I wonder if David ever prayed this prayer…   “God, I know you said I am anointed to be the next King and all, But how can I be king when I’m on the run from someone who is trying to kill me??? Kind of seems a backwards doesn’t it?”   I’ve prayed that prayer many times. “God you gave me this promise. But WHY is it that EVERYTHING Is going in the opposite direction of that promise? ...

This is the day the Lord has made and we shall rejoice and be glad in it!!   Morning Family!   Today is a simple message. And it starts by putting myself on out there. I woke up this morning and the first thing in my mind was…   “Ugh, I can’t do this today. I’m tired. I can feel it; I just know this day is going to be miserable.”   Yes people, I’m human!!! But you know what, I love the Holy Spirit. He just reminds me to watch my confession. And immediately I knew I had to switch that thing up!!!!   I mean, seriously. What you speak is what you get. It is what it is. If I speak about how broke I am, then I’ll be broke. But if I say, I have money that is speedily on the way that is way above what I was planning for, then that’s what I’m going to have!!!!   One of my beautiful sisters was texting me about a week ago asking me to lift her up in prayer because she wasn’t feeling well and was having odd fevers. And that the docto...

Hey Family, I was included in a special text message a couple of weeks ago giving an eye opening story. It really makes me think. And especially, about your parenting of teen kids. But it made me smile too. I'm not going to change a word of the message. I feel like it's in it's most simplified wording as it is, so I will just quote it for you. "Why do our kids (or family members) not appreciate all we do for them? Answer: Us. I heard a story that was like shock therapy to me... There was a caterpillar that had transitioned into a cocoon. This little boy saw it and cut the cocoon open to 'save' the caterpillar. The caterpillar ended up dying a caterpillar. Many times we 'save' our kids or family members, not realizing they are going through a needed process. Had the little boy allowed the transition, that caterpillar would have blossomed into a beautiful butterfly. I challenge us all to allow the process. It's not comfortable to watch but le...

Hi Family!! I've been going through some things lately that have had me in a place where I've had to Forgive. Some to forgive easily. Some turned out to not be so easy. But regardless of whether it is hard for you or not, it is necessary. It's not necessary for the person you are forgiving, but it's necessary for   YOU . If I walk around in unforgiveness, not only am I using up my own emotional strength in frustration, hurt, pain, disappointment, or whatever other feelings I may or may not have. Not only is it the emotional strength that is being used, but also mental strength. I talk about these things, and I know there are people that are like "what is she talking about?". So let me give you an example that has been debated for a long time. A person that works a physical job 9 hour days can be just as tired as a person that is working 9 hours a day sitting at a computer. The person that is working the physical job is tired, in their body d...